Reprimanda

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 REPRIMANDA 

#7 Thus Spake We

AMANDA landed quite a man but she gave him the upper hand

Sure she gave a damn but never did she reprimand him, 

stand up when she should have banned him,

canned him passed him up like she should have ran shit, 

see the things he puts her through leave her lost without a clue,

she remains afraid to step up and speak the truth, and he crept around testing out how weak her clutch had grew, before she could refuge he would blow a giant fuse, he regroup with his old crew she was duped more than a few times, but she kept preoccupied and just let him do his grind, he kept waiting for the chew out but she loved him great amounts, even though he makes her blue she just let it do, day by day the BS accrued she refused to get rude, felt like raising hell but he was one she didn't want to lose, relationship would ruin if she didn't help out her dude, why did she let it ruin inside when he should have been accused, she used to check him when he stepped up acting like a fool, now he tools around the city like he's got something to prove, nothing but I love you out of her mouth and in it food, he subdued her when she caught him stealing all her mothers jewels, she pursued him because she liked how he was breaking all the rules, rendezvousing be improving ways that she deals with his mood, sores and wounds neglected because her brain was the one affected, tell the folks it ain't a joke because she does want to elope, could use a list of dues and don'ts on top of her own parade and float, he said nope no more dope but still he ain't no pope, mope around frowning because he wants a ride to get some smokes, hope that Amanda has some gas because he is sure broke, she thinks he's always working actually he hasn't woke, up before 10 in a minute without his dad enforcing this thing called discipline, grinning as he screams her calls smoke a CIG before we kiss, pissing on her hopes and wishes force her to sit still and listen, she remains a pacifist, dissing herself from hissy fits, the bitch which he so desperately misses incest we played the fifth

Born Against Her Will - Eligh - I Am Born

 BORN AGAINST HER WILL

Eligh - I Am Born

Shhh dare I say her name? My dead little sister got god damned

knock knock chair down at the door God's back

Shame on the man whomnever told her about the neck

now she's a stain upon my own in black ink   

Dare I say her soul ain't free? How dare me here still in hell she?  Shame, the news read, she was only 15

Now life was never fair but her suicide tears me apart,

from the inside out I'm paralyzed and all my thoughts

Dare I speak her name? I curse her in my prayers...

I'ma take that up with her myself for all I've had to bear  

Cuz now I'm left to wear this noose on my neck,

But I swear ill never drop it, u can't take it, s’all I got left

I’m cursed! suffering is mine, its true

not a lot can say they got the strength to take this confusion and pain

But I refuse to lose to this traumatic haunting monster

Influence my sister,  but forever I'll resist

This ring of sin, this villainous invasion

Taking reign upon my brain,  trying' to erase my sister's name?

Like a thorny crown, she's blood stain upon a gown, I try to get it out but the only hell that comes out... 

Revenge upon you little bitch how could you trust in such a prick this anti-Christ seductive lying piece of fibrous shit?

wistful, furious I’m listless – so the noose does gently sit,

Till the day I lose my grip

Darcy in my memories, picture frames, family trees

Left us more than grievances, sacrificial lamb of treason

Wishful thoughts of rest in peace, now we're taunted by the beast

leave me be, this noose forever be a wicked curse on me  

My sister under influence of weakened hope and chemic-illness

Her visions never were fulfilling, Longing for flawlessness 

Love and joy mysteries, peace out of reach

taunted by societies enforced belief systems was she

No trust in herself, but frustration far too much

She was stuck inside utopia dreaming of the dust,

Such a battle what a storm such a useless world in store,

for a girl without a prayer every windows just door.

staring straight into a dismal state of Self-hate and Mutilation

 till the bleeding numbed the pain and all sensation faded,

Under pressure underweight each friend more fake

talking behind her back on the race to heaven’s gate

race to heaven's gate,

You little whore, you little slut, you ugly fat disgusting fuck,

You only purge two times a day? Don't cut as deep as us?

Well... that just not enough. But, If you hate yourself enough,  and your shrink says you're fucked you,

You'll be popular like us, Soon well hate each other's guts!

thats the essence of our clique, get with us cause we're the shit, so my sister mixed with bitches without confidence or wishes,

Till a verbal slaughter worse than all their slitted wrists!

Oh how I miss my little sister, My Darcy Lynne...

Darcy in my memories, picture frames, family trees

Left us more than grievances, sacrificial lamb of treason

Wishful thoughts of rest in peace, now we're taunted by the beast

Away with you! You cursed noose, Forever its you I accuse!

Darcy in my memories, picture frames, family trees

Left us more than grievances, sacrificial lamb of treason

Wishful thoughts of rest in peace, now we're taunted by the beast

Leave me be or else the noose will be the last of me, 

Shhh dare I say her name? my dead little sister got god damned

knock knock chair down at the door God's back

Shame on the man whomnever told her bout the neck

now shes a stain upon my own in black ink   

Dare I say her soul aint free? How dare me here still in hell she?  Shame, the news read, she was only 15

Life ain't ever easy, pleasing, fair, or just - believe me,

this suicide's been measly torn me up and paralyzed me

from the inside out my self, mind, and thoughts are all beside me

Dare i say her name? I curse her in my prayers,

parsed scrutiny spared pursed lips burst and tear  

Cuz now I'm left to wear this noose on my neck,

But I swear ill never drop it, u cant take it, s’all I got left

I’m cursed! suffering is mine, its true

not a lot can say they got the strength to take this confusion and pain

But i refuse to lose to this relentless haunting monster

Influence my sister,  but forever I'll resist

This ring of sin, this villainious invasion,

this torturous atrocious taunting tormenting coerscion

This corrosive brain forsaken-shame this eroded focus taken reign, 

this pain struck heart strung praise remains unspoken 

from a throat, silent hope tryin' to cope, with this emotion

like a scar, sown proud, sharp spoken, thorny crown,

fresh blood drippin down upon a white satin gown,

I try to spit it out, but the sound is faint n faded brown,

I'm hellbent shouting out whatever words are found:

Revenge upon you little bitch how could you trust in such a prick this anti-christ seductive lying piece of fibrous shit?

wistful, furious I’m listless – so the noose does gently sit,

Til the day I lose my grip

Darcy in my memories, picture frames, family trees

Left us more than grievances, sacrificial lamb of treason

Wishful thoughts of rest in peace, now we're taunted by the beast

May it be in hell or heaven, her news a piece of me

My sister under influence of weakened hope and chemic-illness

Her visions never were fulfilling, Longing for flawlessness 

Love and joy mysteries, peace out of reach

taunted by societies enforced belief systems was she

No trust in herself, but frustration far too much

She was stuck inside utopia so dreams were of the dust,

Such a battle such a storm such a useless world in store,

for a girl without a prayer every windows just door.

staring straight into a dismal state of Self-hate and Mutilation

 till the bleeding numbed the pain and all sensation faded,

Under pressure underweight each friend more fake

talking behind her back on the race to heaven’s gate

Deceptive two-faced creatures no intelligence

Hate spake from the bitches lips she believed every bit

Inner critic soon to dominate her every little think

Imprisoned in her own skin her head echoed the disses

Till the ringing in her head as ugly as her slitted wrists

2Little whore little slut you ugly fat disgusting fuck

You only purge two times a day? And don’t cut deep as us?

Well that’s just not enough, But if you hate yourself enough

and youre shrink says you’re fucked up, You’ll be popular like us,

And soon we'll hate each other's guts

So my sister mixed with bitches without confidence or wishes

Till all her thoughts were just as messy as her slitted wrists

oh how i miss...

Soon we'll hate each other's guts, This concoction, this destruction,

Desolation and corruption, this ill befell upon my sis

till her final gift, asphyxiation. oh how i miss

Darcy in my memories, picture frames, family trees

Left us more than grievances, sacrificial lamb of treason

Wishful thoughts of rest in peace, now we're taunted by the beast

Leave me be or else the noose will be the last of me 

Amandoes Love Me - DJ Premier - So What's Up

SO WHats up youtube

AMANDOES LOVE YOU

Dj Premier - So Whats Up

A man does what he wants

A man does what he needs

A man does what hes gotta do and also as he please

A man does better than his best so he can make the team

A man does not remember was it real or just a dream?

A man does what he was taught

A man does learn as he goes

A man each and everything the way he was shown

A man does what he can if a man does not understand

But A man does not even know how long on earth he will stand

A man does have organs like a lung from which breath

A man does have some vocal cords and thoughts that he can speak 

A man does have a brain and heart, someone could break it

But A man does have 2 hands and tools for all the things he making

A man does get upset sometimes

A man does fall to illness

A man does have to take a break and sleep and pay and bills and shit

A man does not have need for things like bras and ovaries

A man does work for years and years in hopes he can retire (please)

A man does not know how to read yet he may own a book

A man does have a friend indeed to cater to his needs

A man does lead the country, a crook he.may be

A man does walk upon 2 feet and with 2 eyes look at me

A man does speak deeper than she

A man does half the shopping spree

A man does wear a sweater, or a shirt, the neck a V,

A man does not need to steal if he lives in luxury

but a man does not trust anyone without proper ID

A man does like a woman who will hug him like a tree

but a man does not make promises hes not sure he can keep

We need a man to save the day

we need a man to lead the way

we need a man to figure out who goes and who shall stay